Green is the new black.

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Buh-bye to my lovely Tabulas. BYE! *cries*

Redirect me.

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Since Jans and I are "illegal" in my family's side, I told my aunt that I'll be going to my sister's place. Thank God for our closeness, they said they'd cover for me when my aunt calls their house. So I went out with Jans. Happy times. He introduced me to his sister, and two brothers and his dad. I've got to say, his brother Jessi had that hottness I always wanted in a boy. He had semi-long hair falling until his nape and rectangular glasses *drools* But of course, I was just like "Hi." Simple and easy. But it's not like I'm going to flirt with him or something. My heart and eyes still belongs to my boyfriend, of course. Anyway, I was beside the whole point of this entry.
I was a little reluctant when he invited me inside his room. I was, like, "No" but with a smile so it never convinced him. Hahaha. I rummaged inside his cabinet, looking for things to see, of course, I found a few things to make fun of. But I liked most was when I was crouched infront of his cabinet, he wrapped his arms around me. I like it when he hugs me, hard and protective. Of course, we made out LOADS of times, just made out though.

Thank God, we're done with PDA since we've got no place to go after school to express our love for each other. Haha.

His house was small and quiet. It has a homey feeling that would make you smile no matter how scattered things were. His sister was pretty with her petite body and his dad was laughing at the smallest things, which I found absolutely endearing. I wasn't envious 'cause my family and I are very very close to each other so it's nice that my boyfriend has the almost same bond with his family.

*sighs* I love my lover.

Redirect.

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I was sitting alone in the dinig room, eating fish with tomatoes mixed in my rice. I was staring at the picture of foods ina  catsup bottle and tried to decipher what kind of food was that, that lay beside the three hotdogs. But instead, I looked at three fried chickens and thought that I hardly put ketchup on my chiken. I suddenly remembered that everytime my mom and maid would cook chiken, my mom would give my sister a whole block of butter to waste on gravy. See why I don't do ketchup?
I realized how much I had almost everything I wanted and absolutely anything I needed. Like my friend Vida told me, "Yeah, you were the least spoiled  but with your lifestyle, you were spoiled". Even though I preferred pampered than spoiled, she was right either way. I even spent nights crying just because I didn't get what I want. She forbid me to use the PC until my grades lost that line of 7. And I thought the PC was my escape from reality. Moving to my aunt's place, I was more forbidden to use the PC than I was before. My mom was my redemption in everything we did and it's still so dangnamit hard to think that we lost her. 

"Remember when I told you that our relationship could be more or less? It's more."
In the end, the chosen July 11 date of telling him wasn't followed. I told him a few days before his birthday.

I love him.
Have I mentioned I fell in love with him? Two days before he asked me to be his girlfriend, July 15.

Maybe it was just right that I turned him down loads of times, and he always came back. Proves how stubborn he is )

I love him, I'm in love with him, more than he thought I would be. I'm just short of expressiveness so I seem to lack the love he expects, but I don't. He's my first and he's close to the quintessential sweetness I wanted.

Hi, I'm Denise. I was just wondering if you would join me in the middle of my ecstasy, it's fun. I'll get your number, too What do you say?

I love you, more than you know, Jans Michael Aro Andres.